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We walk boldly in faith

We walk boldly in faith

Why doesn’t anyone ever listen to me?

I woke up thinking about this. I don’t know why, but I’m taking it as a sign to finally give this elephant a go. Elephant meaning: A word on Faith. My faith, our faith. How faith keeps us going, despite our fall-short sinning nature. I think that’s the point.

Who has kids? Who feels like no one is ever listening? Who feels like they are pouring wisdom and experience out into the world and no one gives a poopycaca? Me. I do and I am. Everyday. Five times over. Sometimes mom does know best, but these damn little people that I created (whom I love) have free will and will do what they want.

Wow. There it is.

This morning, I finally got it…and I’m working through it.

Just as we desire our children to trust and obey, WE must trust and obey, first. To those of you who do this with unwavering, radical obedience - I am not worthy because this is not my style. I want the how, what, when, where and why. I want a map and a plan and a say, or I’m really not interested.

The realities of a life lived by faith goes against everything that makes me comfortable. You want me to do what, God? Relinquish control over my life? Surrender myself? Just trust you and take a step? Whoa. Hold on there big guy. Sure, you created the living earth, but this is MY job, house, money (fill in the blank). I don’t think so.

We disagree, often.

You know those people you meet who are content? Confident and at peace with who they are and how they are serving this world. I want that and THAT comes with alignment. That comes with surrender. That comes with faith because I am meant to serve this world in a way that only I can. Unique and wonderfully me. Total surrender to His design and for His glory.

100% truth: I fight it constantly. Nick too.

Despite the fight, this is the foundation of our family mission statement, remember that? Check it out. Heck, this is the foundation of our life. Period. There are four main pillars: FAITH, GRACE, LOVE, AUTHENTICITY. I will speak boldly here - you can not effectively practice any of these until you can surrender self and you can not surrender self until you have faith and trust in a God who loves you.

The end of the year is upon us. A time to reflect on where we have been, who we are and how we want to serve better. We have fumbled and failed and fell and rose over and over again and we will continue to on this incredible journey. We celebrate the journey and encourage you to as well. Reflect on 2018, but leave it in 2018. The past is a platform to grow from, not die in. Consider this as you write your new year’s resolutions:

What would you be able to do if you got out of your own way?

Great moves of God are usually preceded by small acts of obedience.

The kids and I were listening to Lee Ann Womack recently and I thought it fitting to welcome in 2019 with this reminder: Always dance. Surrender to the process and trust that there is a beautiful plan that is meant for only you. And even when it feels like there is too much to overcome, I have great faith that through you, mountains will be moved.

With love and gratitude, #TUFlife.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

~Lee Ann Womack

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