Typically, I’m all about F A M I L Y - We are the ultimate family life. Today, however, I’m giving a shout out to all the mamas of the world because I’m feeling the love and we deserve some celebration. Maybe Nick will give us a papa bear round of applause someday.
So, this crazy, swirling, thought vortex started about a month ago when Nick said, “I wish you would just let loose sometimes.”
HOW DARE HE?
Then I got over myself and actually heard what he was saying. And dammit, he is right! I don’t know when it happened. I don’t know how it happened. I don’t know why it happened. But, it happened. Slow and subtle, it crept up on me overtime. With each kid and life, I got less fun. Damn. Any other mamas out there feel that way?
Responsibility. Organization. Laundry. Schedules. Nutrition. Guilt. Enrichment. Exercise. Screen time. Playdates. Work/life balance. Correct balance of omega 3/6. Intentional time. Sibling fighting. Self esteem. Sports. Reading. Being outside. Wearing enough sunscreen. Summer camps. Helping parent days. Class snack. Making lunches. Making beds. Did I mention laundry? Parent date night. Maintaining healthy relationship with your husband. S E X (!!). Being on time. Going to church. Raising kind humans.
Somewhere along the way, I made all of this the most important thing and lost myself in the process AND started missing the point of life, love and motherhood. I’m just as caught up as everyone else on all the BS that doesn’t matter. Accountability 101, Kim, do what you say you are going to do. So here is my goal, dream, vision, purpose:
LOVE MYSELF. LOVE MY CHILDREN. FEED THEM SOMETIMES. BRING THE JOY.
As it turns out, it actually has nothing to do with me or you. We are just the vessel. If we allow Him to work through us instead of fighting for our agenda, I think we would all be at a lot more peace and have a lot more fun with this amazing thing called motherhood.
Waking up at 5am for some alone time with two children
Changing the sheets and forgetting to put a diaper on the newly potty trained 3 year old that night
Toothpaste smeared all over your bathroom sink
Eating most meals standing
Never peeing alone again
Sleeping upside down and backwards on an ottoman because the baby is now quiet
Being strong and tender and understanding and scared and brave
Waking up with a bed full of little blessings
Fighting over homework
Having hard conversations
Not sleeping for 72 days straight
Never having another complete thought again
Eating cold leftover mac and cheese
Mamas, celebrate our choice to bring little lights into this world. We have been blessed with the honor and privilege of doing this good work. Let’s let go of what doesn’t matter and have some fun with this gift!